I have been writing this blog since 2008. Originally, it began as a type of personal journal. I had tried journaling several decades ago. What really happened is that I wrote some interesting claptrap that I decided should never be seen by anyone other than me.
But, there is a difference between writing for your private view, and writing what everyone else will read. It is scary putting your opinions out in public. It is frightening to be exposed to the opinions of anyone who passes by your blog. I quickly realized that blog writing is hard on your self-image. Either you are completely destroyed or you are lauded as a sapient person. Of course, neither image is true, but they certainly tug at the heart and emotions.
I found that blog writing was good for me personally. Blog writing has forced me to write in a more neutral and logical fashion. I realize that those who disagree with me politically will not see it that way, but it is definitely true that I have been forced to be more logical.
My surprise was when some people began to write to me asking for advice. I know I am a priest, and I am supposed to give advice. However, the thought that people who did not know me would ask for advice was frightening. It was frightening because Jesus talked about the price of causing one of his little ones to stumble. As he said, it would be better if I were to tie a millstone around my neck and then jumped into the sea.
We are now at nearly six years from when I started this blog. I still feel some of the same fears. Lately, I have been feeling some writer’s block. I struggle with what to write. I struggle with not giving in to my personal opinions and my personal angers.
In fact, those struggles have been good for me. They force me out of myself and force me to consider whether I am being fair, logical, and thoughtful. I will not claim the word, wise.
Yes, I am currently suffering from some writer’s block. But, these years have been good for me. They have helped me develop some reasonable sound theology. And, sometimes my own blog helps me to see the discrepancy between what I am and what I could be.
So, keep my in your prayers. Ask that I may receive regular inspiration. But, mostly, pray that I may not express thoughts that lead others into thinking that misses the mark.
Father, I don’t know how it worked out for other people, but your advice was very helpful to me. Thanks!
Padre, I don’t think you have to worry about the millstone unless you’re willfully misleading us.
Are you?
No. So keep on writing. Maybe you’ll be wrong once in a while, or maybe we’ll disagree with you but you’re not exactly a wolf in sheep’s clothing.
Writer’s block? Zokay. I’ve had it for several years now.
Dear brother Ernesto:
Congratulations on six years along this branch of Jesus’ vine. One of my other current reads is Watchman Nee’s “The Spiritual Man”, along with the 10th year through Oswald Chambers. Lovely how often they and you support each other, and sharpen the day’s lectionary reading(s). Perhaps your block is a hindrance from above that requires prayer and waiting. If it is a hindrance from below, I’m sure you know what to do. Blessings.